*sigh of relief*

It was time once again to get my HIV test and as usual I was nervous like a mug. This time was worse than usual because I had pretty much convinced myself that I had it. Every bump was a swollen lymph node. Every sweat was a fever. Every time I pulled the covers off at night, it was a night sweat. Shit was crazy. All that drama has led me to the decision that I will no longer be having sex on a whim. I will only be participating in the full act with someone that i genuinely respect and want to build something with. From now on it's all about that mutual masturbation. It's the safest thing going these days.